Thursday, November 11, 2010
New Outsider Girl, Sonny, is only thirteen. She’s beginning to get her teenaged personality, is beginning to get annoyed with her mother’s interference in her life, but… in some ways, she’s still a kid, and wants her mother to continue to take charge.
Sunny: My mother makes schedules:
Tells me “it’s 7:45, time to get dressed.” (seriously!), “it’s 5:00, time for homework”, “it’s 5:45, time to put on your karate uniform”, “it’s 6:15, time for dinner,” and worst of all, “It’s 10:00, time for bed,” like I can’t tell when I’m tired! She says if I don’t go to bed by ten I’ll be a bitch in the morning and she has to work and she doesn’t have time to deal with that so “Lights out now Molly!”
My mother hates messes:
Comes into my room to watch iCarly with me, looks around and grimaces and I have to say, “Why do you always do this, you always say you’re coming in to hang out with me and then you look around and think about how messy I am!” She says, “I didn’t say anything,” which to be fair, is true, but I know what she’s thinking.
My mother hates messes and makes schedules and it drives me crazy, but sometimes, it’s not so bad. Sometimes I’m so glad she does these things for me:
After Justin Hollister whispered in my ear, “Could you find out if Hannah likes me,” when I liked him, my mother stepped over mismatched shoes and scraps of fashion, around a giant stuffed dog, and squished between books and clothes and dolls to get to me, bawling on my bed, to hold me tight, and it was like she was never going to let go, and she cried with me, and she said, “What a mess we are. It’ll be okay,” until it was.
My mother has probably scheduled when it’ll be time for me to grow up, but she’s not in a hurry for that. Sometimes I think, I’m not either.